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[Aug. 5th, 2005|10:55 pm] |
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I know i have not posted in forever but just wanted to see if i could get any concensus on this subject.....
Have you ever met someone and felt instantly attracted to them and wanted to continue getting to know them but feel that they dont feel the same way? Even though they say they miss you and that they feel the same way?
I would love to hear any comments anyone has to offer...most people who know me know i can be kind of a girl about things like this but i just wonder if i really am a girl or just human!
hope everyone is well! |
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[Jan. 31st, 2005|09:58 pm] |
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Well I have not posted in a long time....there are so many reasons why, of which I really don't want to go into any of it. But on the heels of what seems like everyone deleteing me from their lists I just thought i would drop something on here. Life is what it is right now life and nothing exciting...awaiting a 30th birthday with as much anticipation as death itself. Working and trying ot stay out of trouble as much as I can. Lately I have been repositioning myself in life and that has caused some reorgenization....its always an ongoing process. I hope that everyone is well and that things are going good! HUGS to all |
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[Jan. 13th, 2005|10:39 pm] |
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[Dec. 6th, 2004|08:35 pm] |
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| RESPECT....what is that really????? |
[Nov. 9th, 2004|12:58 am] |
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Hmmm when i think about that word i think of not doing stuf to peopel that you be construde as rude or out of line. Well I think we totally missed that this weekend by the actions that were played out. I must apologize at this point for the fact that I don't at this point care if people get mad at me for speaking my mind and I dont care if they do not want ot hang out with anymore. Its pretty common knowledge at this point that no one likes the freind that I invited to come this weekend, but what I dont get is the total disprespect for him and in turn disrespecting me by being so fucking rude to him! Its great and fine that you do not like him GREAT im glad for you all! But you say you like me and I would think hey lets just ignore him and not deal with, but no that couldn't be done. He had to be taken advantage of and treated like a dog. I hope you all like being treated like that cause i hope at some point in your life it comes back to you. Honestly at this point i guess i see that you dont have any respect for me as in my chest hair being set on fire and someone else thinking it was funny and they could do it too cause it was funny. GUESS WHAT...not funny, not to me anyway. No one bothered to make sure i was fine except for one person. Everyone is probably like OMFG whata drama queen, but you know what I am no more of a drama queen for saying this as you all are for the stuff you did to him and to me. The only thing I really have to say is thanks for showing me the ages that you truely wish to act and How you truely veiwed my freindship. think whatever you must, but i know the truth. Im not stupid and I understand alot more then most give me credit for. My weekend got ruined because of all that shit and I dont want any apologies for it, I just expected alot more out of people i called my freinds. Guess I had way to high of expectations. For that I am truely sorry. So for whatever reason you dont like someone I hope that someone does not hate you as much as you hated him cause that could mean quite a bit of hurt. oh well. If you take the time to read this wonderful, if not then i guess it proves you dont care. Thanks everyone for a wonderful weekend!! |
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[Oct. 14th, 2004|10:14 pm] |
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Just thought I'd stop in and say Hi to all my peeps from sunny Phoenix. Today the weather was horrible it was sunny and like 90 degress i mean it was so nice it was sickening...LOL
Done my first major shopping purchase and hit the Arizona state fair tonight, Woohoo fried twinkies on a stick! LOVE THE FAIR! Sooo anyways I hope all you people at home are cool and Ill see you all o nthe flip side!! :) |
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[Oct. 6th, 2004|08:49 pm] |
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[Sep. 22nd, 2004|07:47 pm] |
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this one is for my real name! I like this one better!! ;)
Your Penis Name is: El Presidente
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[Sep. 22nd, 2004|07:45 pm] |
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Your Penis Name is: Harry & the Hendersons
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| Thoughts on paper! |
[Sep. 15th, 2004|05:32 pm] |
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Its been a while since a real post that I thought I mights as well give a blurb. Over the past couple weeks since hte mental breakdown so to speak, I have been rethinking alot of things. I have meet a couple of wonderful guys and are continuing to go with the flow. I have quite a few things going on over the next month and a half that i feel a bit overwhelmed, but not really its kind of hard to explain. I have a freind coming from Iowa to the UofM game against Iowa so I will be working that game and hangin with him. The next weekend is camping at campit for hallowween, then I will be leaving on the 13th for phoenix till the 19th, maybe even looking for a job while i am out there, I have not yet made up my mind completely. Oncei get back i little bit of time then I have bearfest in lansing at the esquire. I know it does not seem like alot but there is prep time invloved and trying ot hang out and have a semi social life it can seem liek a lot especially when over the past year i have not been to at all busy with stuff.
Getting back to the mental breakdown so to speak, I am trying to slip myself into this kind of fantasy world where I dont let my feelings get he better of me and try to be more laid back about the way things go. I like meeting new people and I am totally ready to settle down but I dont know if I can find anyone that is totally ready to start on that path and maybe I am not as ready as I think I am. I have to be willing to sacrifice somethings about myself and I have to be willing to really get my ass in gear with my finances, and with not too many jobs out there its not like ill be career shopping anytime soon. (trust me been looking somewhat). But these are some major things I think i need to change and its NOT so easy. I just want ot have fun I guess and see where things go But i want to be able to have something a little mor cnstant in my life, not putting alot of strain on things you knwo what i mean. Oh well guess I have to see where things go, where all these events coming up bring my life too.
More on this subject and afterthoughts later........ |
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[Sep. 2nd, 2004|09:19 pm] |
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Ever just do something out of stupidity cause you want to see how you can handle yourself? Well I did tonight, I decided I would finally talk to my ex from back around christmas thinking I could tell him off and handle everything cause I am for the most part over him. Well I feel I am over him somewhat even though a part of me still wantes him even though I know he is an asshole. Basically he twisted everything and made me out to be the liar and all this shit. Even though i know hes wrong, Those words cut very deep right now, specially when I am questioning myself and my thoughts and my life right now. Am I really as bad as he said? I would hope Im not. Do i treat guys like im better then them cause he said i was a pompus ass sometimes and that i act liek a spoiled brat. I mean is this true? someone better tell me if I am cause I would never want to be ike that to ANYONE! Especially someone im dating.
All I see is the same things happening to me over and over again, liek a never ending cycle. ups and downs and lots of low points lately since i broke up with him. I feel like my self esteem took a shot when i dated him and it seems to be slipping, I used to be confident that I was a good person now Im not so sure of that anymore. I sit here with my head hang down, tears burning my eyes not knowing what the truth in me is anymore, what my purpose on this earth is anymore, what my destiny could have in store for me anymore. At this point I am feeling like its time to cut off the world and not do anything about it anymore. I know its not the best thing to do but at this point its an aption worth looking into harder and with more thought, start fresh new everything nothing but me. Cause right now Im not sure I can even count on me anymore and If you can't count on yourself for support what kind of life could you lead? *shruggs shoulders* |
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[Sep. 1st, 2004|04:32 pm] |
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[Aug. 26th, 2004|04:11 pm] |
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For those of you who know me this is me to a tee....except one thing at he the bottom but oh well at least i know how to use it! It makes you think about yourself! I just wish i could get others to see my potential! LOL
eXpressive: 7/10
Practical: 4/10
Physical: 5/10
Giver: 6/10
You are a XSIG--Expressive Sentimental Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Teddy Bear.
Hee! I just want to give you a big squeeze. You are tender, honest, generous and fair. You are an excellent kisser and a sensitive, communicative lover, and you know it. You would never intentionally hurt someone's feelings or overstep his/her boundaries. You have beautiful eyes.
Most people take your laid-back attitude, blazing wit and subtle sexiness and stick you in "friend." But some see your extreme hotness for what it is and latch on. This means you have a few members of your target sex in the bank at all times -- I call this "money in the sex bank" -- but you're too sensitive and thoughtful to exploit them. More than once.
You are so rational and deliberate in an argument that it can frustrate and exhaust your partner. Your fights can take forever, but your press on with them until they are completely resolved and both you and your partner are satisfied. If your partner is weak of will, s/he may just give in -- be wary of this! An emotional or passive-aggressive outburst later will hurt and horrify you.
It is *critically important* that you are able to respect your partner. The moment you lose respect for him/her, you lose everything.
When you make friends, you make them for life -- you can go without speaking to a friend for years and pick up right where you left off. You are completely faithful, both physically and emotionally. You are the second best (to XPIG) parent of any type.
If you are male, you have a huge shlong. Just saying.
Of the 9007 people who have taken this quiz, 12.3 % are this type. |
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[Aug. 24th, 2004|05:22 pm] |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2004|07:08 pm] |
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A six pack of Smirnoff Green Apple Twisted and a fifth of Sour Raspberry Schnapps = $20.72
Pack of Marlboro ultra light 100's = $4.35 plus tax
Big tent in hte middle of a camp ground = $17.00 a night
Having drunken anonomous sex in the woods! = PRICELESS |
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[Jul. 30th, 2004|06:50 pm] |
You are the Marquis Da Sade. Even stripped of
exaggerations, Your real life was as dramatic
and as tragic as a cautionary tale. Born to an
ancient and noble house, you were married
(against your wishes) to a middle-class heiress
for money, caused scandals with prostitutes and
with your sister-in-law, thus enraging your
mother-in-law, who had you imprisoned under a
lettre de cachet for 14 years until the
Revolution freed you. Amphibian, protean,
charming, you became a Revolutionary,
miraculously escaping the guillotine during the
Terror, only to be arrested later for
publishing your erotic novels. You spent your
final 12 years in the insane asylum at
Charenton, where you caused another scandal by
directing plays using inmates and professional
actors. You died there in 1814, virtually in
the arms of your teenage mistress.
You are a revolutionary deviant. I applaud you.
Which Imfamous criminal are you?
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Hmmm ok i guess.....lol
And why am i the same as HIM?! he stole my answers!!! :) |
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